When will it end?
Not going to lie…it has been an extreme struggle. Managing from home and being away from the staff is difficult, especially for an interior design firm. These past 6 months we’ve done everything we can to stay in sync but nothing replaces the true connection of energy people make. The creativity in a room, the discussions, the pulling of materials and animated conversations, this is what makes design great. This is what makes an office buzz and it’s the fun part for f’s sake!
Who here is a Mom or Dad? Whether you are a single, married, working or stay at home (really??? we are all SAH right now)…our “work-load” grew! It grew and the mental capacity went to zilch. I have been hanging by a thread. I have broken down in tears. I have tried to hold it together and I am still trying. I’m doing everything I can to pivot and get more business. I’m looking at other avenues of projects because I have a staff, with families. There is no room for failure…it is not an option. By the blessing of God, we do have projects and we continue to stay healthy. But I will say, I’ve had a hard time meditating, it’s as if my thoughts are all mashed up into a ball floating in the sky and I can’t grasp it…my prayers are quick and mostly, “Lead me to the right direction,” “Protect my family,” “Tell me what I’m suppose to do”…..and so I continue to trust in Him. I really do.
I’m slowly coming out of the haze (thank you to my husband for my Peloton!) and we have made some changes. Our daughter is back in private school and our son continues with his amazing pod until in-school starts. His IEP has been another blessing. I’m coming to the office more - I might be alone but I’m in my element…lonely as it is at times, when another person comes to the office, I get so excited - peeps! My husband also agreed to a puppy which makes me get up and hang outside….I have never seen our backyard so much! So what if she poops behind the sofa (even though she literally just went outside) and that our shoes are constantly missing - Roxy is a breath of fresh air and a lovebug.
So where exactly am I right now? Honestly, I am not sure. I continue to keep a smile on my face, continue to work on getting new projects and just trying my best. I guess that is all we can do….try our best.
